the yr hasnt bin close 2 gud so far,atleast 4 me,but then again,i wud very much like 2 put 2008 behind me though theres just 1 thing abt last yr that i never will quite 4get but wish i cud erase it from my mind n the guilt behind it is immeasureable!!!!!!!

its bin rainin cats n dogs all week puttin a very huge dent in all outdoor activities that wud potentially make my life less crippling and beyond misery sis bein broke n home!urghhhhhhhh!

had 2 attend my sisters graduation party that turned out not 2 be as horrible as i had expected it 2 be though i was so busy bein the perfect host that i didnot eat n thing n b4 i cud do anything abt that,the nyt had gon by,gave up on a meal n slept off the fatigue,atleast thats all gon now sine i wasnt looking 4ward 2 it,at all!

i got just 7 days left n i cant wait 2 get bak 2 the life i hope will replicate the hapiness i hope 2 encounter n deserve 2 have but thats goin 2 be extar hard since all the people i remotely call my friends have all gone/are goin 2 different parts of the world 2 pursue further education,cant help but feel all alone.

stuff isnt goin so well with the bf,am not so in love with him as i used 2 b n it scares me cs he loes me more than anythng and i wudnt want  2 break his heart!life sucks.

gotta go,be back in ....i dont knw! 

Ok,its been yrs since my last blog entry,i had the worst bday ever!tho the high light ws a call from CJ(lv u lots!!!!) n lousy excuse 4 presents!anyway,i really thank God am 20 yrs old cos hopefully they will stop treating me like a kid!but am over the bday blues....ok,maybe not!

The exam results were released and thank heavens i passed and can totally join uni now tho i dont think i will be able 2 do telecommunication engineering like i had hoped,,all the same,am happy!

I got a job just wen i had finally given up on getting 1,its not much of a job really but i was really running broke and am happy  2 earn a lil something cos i was doin pretty badly! 

not much of a blog afta a long absence but,am outta words 4 now,so,ciao!

i think am goin bak 2 total boredom cos all i do is stay in the house all day and i can definately feel some on coming mood swings that might be a result of frustration or an indication that its almost that dreadful time again,either way,they are there and i cant help it.